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Time’s flight

Time is such a weird concept! Every New Year’s Day, I expect time to progress slower than at the end of a year. Because I am slower, too, during that period, I would like time to slow down sometimes. But it seems to go faster than ever. And while I am usually rather upset about … Continue reading

Gratefulness

I had a rough few weeks, dear readers, weeks that resulted in a visit to the doc’s today to finally find out that I have got a few slipped disks that are the reason for my pain. It’s gonna be fine, it’ll just take a while. And in my relief, I turned to my journal … Continue reading

Trading pain for happy memories?

Today is my brother Erik’s 36th birthday. For some reason, this day becomes sadder for me the longer he is dead. It’s been almost 9 years now, unbelievable! I went to the cemetery for the first time this year. I don’t go there often. While I love cemeteries, it is not the place I need … Continue reading

I am a Muslim, don’t panic!

Catchy headline, isn’t it? To avoid any confusion, this post is not about Muslims or religion at all. I am still a spiritual Atheist, and it is not about that, either. It is about our perception of the current state of the world. And when I was sitting on my balcony early today, contemplating how … Continue reading

Meta feelings

Thanks to a lovely night out with my friend T., I was able to add a new word to my collection: meta rage. I suppose this term does not exist at all, but it is truly appropriate. According to T., meta rage describes the feeling of being angry about being angry. Get it? Let me … Continue reading

Just a very quick note…

… to say I am still alive. I have not given up on this blog, I just started working full-time again a month ago and it is taking up a lot of my energy. The rest of my energy is spent on looking for apartments with Mr. Betterhalf and trying to get my stuff done. … Continue reading

Perspectives on getting old(er)

Source Most of my ideas for blog posts are inspired by conversations I have or by things I observe. This one started to grow after I talked to a friend on the phone yesterday. I met her when I was 24 and now I am…. older! I will be 37 next week and HOW THE … Continue reading

The story of the dragonflies

source In my last post for my brother’s birthday I mentioned that dragonflies are very special to me ever since he is gone. Now the anniversary of his death is approaching – I will not have the time or energy on the very day to publish anything here, so I decided I’ll do it today. … Continue reading

Happy birthday, big little brother!

source Today’s post is a rather personal one. Today is my big little brother’s 33rd birthday. Except he will be 27 forever – he died of leukaemia nearly 6 years ago. And I mean ‘died’; I cannot stand the expression ‘passed away’. It sounds so random… ‘Oops, I just passed away there, sorry for that!’. … Continue reading

Nothing to fear

I painted this picture many years ago. This is how I felt and even though I am not a very talented painter, it was my first attempt to canalise what was going on inside me. I remember my first panic attack very vividly. It was Easter 1997 at my Grandmother’s house. My parents, my brother, … Continue reading